Hmm guess I haven't really written in here for a while, thing is I don't have that much time. I'd like to keep updating and I think I'm doing better then I used to.
Okay so the inevitable has happened, I have to get a summer job. After the WR tour, I am so broke and I really need money. So I guess it's back to another summer of waitressing unfortunately. I have never liked waitressing but it's probably the only job I can get now so you know, I have to take what I can get. I could be working at two places, a golf club and a restaurant. But at the end of the summer, I will have dosh and it will all be worth it.
Hmm other news, not a lot to report. The world cup has started as everyone on the planet probably knows and although I am rooting for England, I just dont get the fuss of the World Cup. It's like everything comes to a standstill because Football is on. What's so great about football? It's just a bunch of guys kicking a ball around on a field. Fun. I hate football, well no I don't, I hate the way it possesses people to be more honest. I don't mind the game itself, it's the continious omg we won feeling people get or we lost feeling. Football is only a game, not the end of the world.

There has been SO much to tell over the past few weeks. I shall start with a quote: "Please don't put your life in the hands of a rock n roll band".

Well that's exactly what me, Denny, Kaz, Taz, Amy and Maria have been doing these past few weeks. We have been on the Waiting Room Tour following Alan Fletcher and his band around the country. Tomorrow we go to Plymouth and boy am I looking forward to that! Anyway Fletch is an utter, utter star. The conversations and chill outs we've had...well I can't begin to describe it. It's just mindblowing!

Over the next few weeks, I shall be writing reports of the gigs and stuff for you all to see :)

Another random entry from me I guess lol. I just feel excited and sad at the same time you know. I think I really embarassed myself the other day by sending a drunken (sort of) pm to my ex on a forum, now I think that was low by my standards and I basically said I missed him. Well, I'm not entirely sure that's true anymore. I think it was closure really to be frank and you know if it was then I feel good about it because it allowed me to get it all out of my system.

LOL, I don't think I've made much sense but oh well. I can't really make sense of it myself. I think for now I need to be single, I need to explore life on my own and I need to make myself happy. I don't think I need a man for that. I mean sure if a guy comes along, then great but I won't allow myself to fall so easily. I think that's what traps you, you learn to trust someone and then they let you down. So I've learnt that I shouldn't fall so easily, I know it's easier said then done however, I have to try.

In other news, my friend is coming down and I'm really excited. We're heading up to Glasgow next week and it's going to be rocking!! I've been looking forward to this night out for days, hell maybe weeks since we started planning this. LOL, I predict drunken debauchery for us all!! WAtch out world.....watch out Scotland!!

I can't stop crying, I really miss my ex. We broke up in Jan/Feb and I really thought I was over him but I'm not. I saw him last wednesday and boom floodgates...I think he probabably has a new girlfriend so I do need to get over him. It would be easier if he wasn't so nice but he is so it sucks even more.

Did a few icons tonight, only a few. From the Aussie soap Neighbours:


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Wow I'm obsessed with writing in my LJ but I felt a need to post a quick 'I've calmed down' entry. I'm not like that normally LOL, I just felt I was gonna explode lmao.
And also coz I'm feeling rather shallow atm:

I feel like a rant and so I will rant on many different things!

Three things I will be covering in my rant today:

*Hurtful Fans of a Certain Ship.
*Essay fucking writing!
*General annoyance.

Urgh okay let's start. Before I do though, let me just say I am not normally a ranty person and this will probably make me sound like a pathetic person but I need to get things off my chest which have been bugging me for like fucking ever! Okay the first thing is: fandom. Now don't get me wrong, I love fandom and shipping couples on different shows and then going to a forum to discuss them! I love it. But there are certain people who like to spoil this for me and for others.
I've had it almost up to my eyeballs with fans that ship a particular ship on a TV soap. On one particular forum, I have noticed them jumping and attacking people if that person criticies something about their ship. Hello? Does everyone else do that to them? No I don't think so. And it annoys the hell out of me when they try to force the ship down our throats. Why can't they just accept that people don't like them and move on? I was banned from a forum because I disagreed with a fans point of view and they shipped that ship. I think that is out of line and awful. And it's not just on that forum, I have noticed this hurtful abuse on other forums too. I know it happens, not everyone is going to disagree with everyone, the world would be a boring place if we did! But God!! Do they have to be so rude about it?? !!
It gets on my nerves greatly. I think it must be a pet hate of mine. Seriously I just thought that everyone respected people's ideas on a forum, guess not. Urgh. Horrific.
I'm pretty stressed out at the moment with having to write my essays that are due in very, very soon. In one essay, I haven't done as nearly as much as I'd like to. I really wish that essays were banned!! They are the bane of my life. It's so fucking hard to write about something that I'm not particarly interested in but I know I have to do. Normally I love to write but these essays are just screwing my brains up. Do I even have a brain? LOL. Don't think so, never have. OMG watch me fail right now. I hate it, I HATE IT ALL. *Brain explodes* 2000 word essays are nothing compared to what I have to face in the third year when it is a ten thousand word essay. I may die then. But at least we have months and months to do that thank god. Thing is, knowing how I am at this moment, I'll probably leave it until the last minute. I always have and I know it's a bad habit but I can't seem to get out of it. Oh my lord.
On to general annoyance, I get pretty annoyed easily these days and I don't know why. The smallest things can make me blow up, maybe it's the stress I don't know. Like for instance, my best friend has been annoying me lately. My mum told me a comment she made about my drinking and I got annoyed very much. I was so angry that she thought I was an alcoholic or something but it turns out she didn't mean it in that way. However it still annoys me because she thinks I drink too much and it's not true. I don't drink every day, I never have. Just because I go out to bars more nowadays then shopping, that automatically makes me an alco? And another thing I heard was that she told her parents who told mine that I didn't like going back to my flat. Since when did I say that?? I might have mentioned I didn't like going back to my flat sometimes because Dan, my flatmate, can be an arsehole at times but I certainly didn't mean it in that way. It's sad that she makes these comments about me and yet can't tell me to my face. Sorry Luce if you are reading this, but it's the way I feel right now. Please just tell me what you think next time xx. Because it does hurt me and these things I tell you in confidence.

Rant ended for the day. Ah I feel better LMAO.

Ive learnt how to post icons so here are some of my icons:

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So I decided to get another LJ this time. I felt like my old one was rubbish and I think I'm going to use this one to upload my icons and everything so people can see it :) Trouble is I do not know how to. I know, I know, that's really pathetic and all but I'll learn, just like I learnt how to make icons and MVS.

Maybe I can't coz I don't have a paid account...meh. I can't get a paid account because they don't accept my Visa card.

OMG I should just shut up now LOL